compartmentalizing

there are a number of assumptions that i’m going to lay out here. the first is that most of the people who read this work full time jobs that are not related in any way to their creative output. that is to say, there is a “day job” involved. most of my friends who i know read this work all day and do their writing or composing or art at night or on the weekends. for me, there are three very strict divisions in my day: work, family and creative output. my creative work is divided right now between composing/recording/practicing (studio time) and instrument building (shop time). that’s a lot of stuff to break down, but it isn’t that difficult to do.

the first step toward doing solid creative work is to make it a part of the day. establishing a routine isn’t easy sometimes because it feels like the thing the the id wants to do isn’t going jive with the time or resources available. my basic strategy is to suck it up. i look for the immovable objects that surround me and use them as anchors to hold me on course or points for me to push off. a great example of that is my son.

my boy isn’t two years old yet. he is a creature of habit and a force of nature. we communicate very effectively but that doesn’t mean that he is compliant in the least. there’s another thing he’s not: quiet. when he was a baby i would take him into the studio with me in the evening and record. this gave my wife some time to herself and allowed me to bond with him. he was critical of my instrument choices sometimes (he still hates the banjo) but for the most part he was quiet and slept, maybe singing along from time to time. a year and a half later, he’s a totally different beast. i can’t have a live mic anywhere near him and he likes to help me play the guitar. so recording with him around is completely out. honestly, playing an instrument with him around is a challenge that i relish, but not one that is conducive to putting material on tape.

all of that aside, he still loves spending time with me in my studio. having him around doesn’t require 100% of my attention (most of the time) and he primarily wants to be close by and play with neat stuff. this is perfectly cool if i want to do some carving on a guitar neck or glue up some binding. he watches, hands me tools, and provides a running commentary that keeps me from taking myself too seriously or over thinking a project. on the weekends we spend hours in the garage together with him playing with anything within reach (which is a very short list of blunt objects that come into regular contact with the concrete floor and my knees) and me doing anything but working with power tools. i’m not cool with running the band saw around a toddler as i’m in love with the idea of keeping all ten of my digits.

with this in mind, there are rules for what kind of creative work can be done with my boy around. the first rule is that the creative activity needs to be one that can be interrupted at any time. that clears the board significantly. sanding can stop while gluing the top to the sides cannot. practicing can stop but recording can’t (or shouldn’t). this seems to contradict what i said about the boy being an example of an anchor, what with all of the stopping and starting, but it doesn’t. i know the rules in advance and being mentally prepared to drop what i’m doing allows me to maintain the necessary focus and still sneak in some work that i might not do if i didn’t see and seize the opportunity.

with the rules in place, i know that working on building an instrument can be done before bedtime but recording one must be done after. most evenings after dinner and a few books, we retire to my studio where i carve or glue or cut up guitar parts and my son plays with all of the fun stuff my studio has to offer a boy his age. things like sheets of cardboard. or a box of clothespins used to glue up linings. or random clamps. or anything with sliders or knobs. or his personal favorite: “peeks.” that would be “picks” to the rest of us. he loves to attack instruments with a guitar pick and so he does. he has fun, i get to chat with him, and plenty of guitar building or composing gets done at a reasonable pace.

note the word “reasonable.” not all definitions of that word are equal. my instrument building pace is glacial. i’m better with that on some days than others, but it’s getting done. being cool with having a longer time line than i would like is pretty important. for sanity’s sake i subdivide the building process into tasks where i need some level of education. like making and gluing braces for the top of the guitar. this is a process full of voodoo so getting the top done became a sub-project of sorts. when i got it done and attached to the sides there was a sense of accomplishment. the guitar isn’t making any noise, but a lot of learning took place and a process was completed. perspective is a powerful tool.

after the boy is in bed comes studio time. this is where the door is closed and my beautiful wife gives me the gift of one uninterrupted hour each night monday through thursday. that’s four hours a week. half of the old school average work day. it doesn’t sound like much, but it is. compartmentalizing means making that tiny part of my day as effective as i can. my passing thoughts are spent imagining what will be done with that time. my commute is often spent planning those 60 minutes and by the time they arrive, i am mentally prepared.

bear with me on this next part. it’s silly, but after thinking about it for some time i have decided that it is pretty important. the transition from family time to studio time is helped along by my shower. i was always a morning shower guy (before i started getting up for work at 5:00 AM) but moving it to the evening puts a good break in the day. much the way the commute home from work splits work time and family time, some hot water provides a mark between everything that i was doing and what i’m going to do in the studio. psychologically this is a really good way to get things rolling. clear divisions of time are quite significant.

when the door closes, i am somewhere else and that’s how it has to be. if your time is limited to an hour a day, it has to be the most effective hour it can be. there is no email. there is no internet. no applications that are not absolutely required for the task at hand. the space is prepared in advance and kept ready for work. no distractions. pure focus.

what makes for a successful session is pretty simple. being prepared mentally is the hard part. all of that other stuff from the day has to go away. the stress of the day to day is on the shelf and there are no priorities aside from doing that solid work. it’s like preparing for a performance. when you are on stage, that’s all there is. it should be the same way in the studio. i’ll talk more about my take on the similarities between the studio and the stage later. they’re more alike than not and that deserves some recognition.

the tools and the room must be set up in advance and preferably kept that way. i have a very simple home studio and keeping it small but feature rich helps me be more effective. there aren’t a thousand widgets to fire up. i plug in my sound block and pre-amp, launch a single application and begin my session. this is in no way limiting. it frees the studio time from the drudgery of keeping pace with a massive pile of gear and accentuates the effort put into composing or recording. a big part of efficiency is simplicity and i practice that for all it’s worth. in fact, i set up the studio after we put the boy to bed and before i take my evening shower. that way the studio is ready when i am.

the hour that i spend in the studio is strictly for creating, not editing or critiquing. that is done on the next morning when i put whatever scraps i can paste together onto the ipod for my morning commute. i find that i’m a very poor judge of material when i’m in the studio. headphones or monitors create illusions of defects that aren’t there in the morning or accent strengths that aren’t as significant after a night’s sleep. so again i have moved my time for critical activity to another chunk of my day. this gives the creative and critical processes some distance and improves the use of the time for each function.

for the kind of balance that is needed to embrace a creative lifestyle alongside the demands of living today, compartmentalizing is key. find a routine. stick to it. and divide time with predetermined markers. following this has squeezed more hours out of the day than i thought i had.

when nothing gets done

what do i have this week sketch-wise? nothing. my germ incubator son gave me the crud and i’ve been in bed before 9 pm most nights this week. i doubt that tonight will be an exception to that despite my recent turn in the general direction of the road that might lead to recovery.

i feel like crap.

i will double up my efforts this weekend and maybe get out a sketch and plenty of work on the new guitar. not holding my breath mind you, but i’m going to get a pile of stuff done. just like i talked about for a thousand or so words in my last post. yeah. that looks good.

more soon…

iterations

very few creative acts “just happen.” works of art are the culmination of everything that an artist has done. even in what would appear to be complete chaos, an artist’s entire process of becoming is present in a piece of work. in a very real sense, each piece is a snapshot of artistic development. that means that every creative effort is the current endpoint for an artist and the stepping stone to the next. with that in mind, i believe in getting it done.

somewhere on the intarwebz i came across the manifesto of the cult of done. these are the thoughts put down by a couple of guys who understand that each piece of work is part of a greater process. i liked the idea so much that i printed it up and hung it on my studio wall. it fits perfectly with my weekly sketch routine.

the reason that i do a sketch a week is to enforce personal discipline and development. many of the tunes i produce will end where they are and that’s fine because they lead to what is next. the act of recording and mixing a new song each week forces me to look at how i create, the tools that i use, and the kind of attention each piece demands. it also feeds what is to come. so while a given sketch may not be what i would consider a polished final product it is no less valuable for the role it plays in getting me to that next step.

my thesis is this: no one improves without many iterations. fish didn’t just jump out of the ocean and start picking apples. it took a while. creative work is the same way. brilliant pieces like “petrushka” didn’t spring fully formed from stravinsky’s head. it took him years of experimentation and hard work to develop the techniques necessary to produce such a thing of beauty. though a composer may only have a handful of pieces that are recognized as a part of the oeuvre, there are probably piles and piles of manuscripts that never saw the light of day. experiments. exercises. call them what you will, but for every truly great piece of music there are probably dozens of things that were, at best, scribbles on paper.

maybe that’s one of the better things about the time we’re living through: it’s pretty inexpensive to be prolific. well, for some disciplines anyway. a few gig of space here and there that can be recycled when it’s all over is pretty nifty. the immediate feedback of being able to commit a performance to the computer and hear it instantly is nice too. add a blog or some file space on the internet and there’s no good reason not to produce as much as you can (or want).

this is not to say that everything should be rushed. far from it. composing a major work can take years. it shouldn’t be pushed at an overly aggressive pace. at the same time, maybe it shouldn’t be the only thing that is in production. i like to keep several things in the air so that when i’m stuck on one i can move to another. it keeps the routine of creativity in tact without forcing bad decisions on a piece. of course if we stick with the “cult of done” model and recognize that everything is a draft, it’s a different ballgame.

and i’m not so sure about that.

in my personal creative process i never know what’s going to take off. i seldom sit down and say “i am going to write something that goes dah-dee blah boop-boop…” instead, i start noodling around. i sketch. play things over and over. create variations. invert ideas. switch up instruments. process things until they are unrecognizable. at no point in this series of experiments do i know when “it” is going to hit. or even if it will hit at all. while that’s certainly part of the fun, it’s not always very satisfying. it’s that feeling that someone at a slot machine gets…it hit once, it has to hit again! and indeed, if i pull the lever enough times, something will turn up. i keep sketching until it does.

so about sketches. they’re great. the more one does, the better the chances are for technical improvement and the more opportunities there are for powerful inspiration to worm its way into the work. once that tiny germ shows up, things can explode. in a very real way, this idea of producing as much as you can and really getting it done creates a deeper pool in which great ideas can grow.

take the project and get it done. “done is the engine of more.”

beware of deep thoughts and banjos

i built a banjo a few years back as a part of some really heavy duty therapy. my entire world was falling apart around me and i sought refuge in a hot garage in iowa with some hand tools and a pile of kindling. slowly but surely i fashioned it into a not-half-bad banjo. i’d never played a banjo before and come to think of it, i don’t think i have since. well, a banjo other than the one i made that is. that was back on ’05. until this week, i never put the banjo in front of a mic.

the banjo is a deliciously difficult instrument to mic for someone with no experience. it sounds hollow and like it has its own reverb. it’s weird, but i had fun. the sketch this week is a simple improvisation on the banjo filled out with a rhythm guitar and bass. don’t be afraid. there are no faux drums on this track. i’m slowly but surely learning. check out the sketch at the bottom of the post.

as for the deep thoughts, well, i sent an email to my old buddy rande today. i think it makes for a good post on where my head is creatively so here it is.

I’m thinking a lot these days. My blog post from the other week was only the tiniest tip of the iceberg. The fact is, I’m focusing a lot of effort on my creative process and what it means to be creative in this time. I’ll be honest and say for the record that I’m one of those disaster nuts. I honestly think that in 30 years we will be looking back on this as one of the hardest times since the depression. I really do feel like we’re in free fall but there’s no window for us to see how fast we’re falling or how far. In a climate like that, what does a creative act mean?

What I was getting at on the blog, and you’re just going to have to suck it up and let me know if I’m nuts, is that this is a great time to be a creative person! We have more access to more stuff than at any time in history. Look at how many paintings da Vinci actually got to spend time with. How many pieces of music did Beethoven hear (before he went deaf)? We have so much input and there are so many voices that it’s hard not to get lost in it all.

The one drawback that I find is that the more I see, the more I feel like I need to be productive. Do you know what I mean? When you see hundreds or thousands of people each doing something it feels like I should be doing enough to match all of them together. It’s not good enough to create a song a week when I’m listening to a dozen or more new tunes every day. There’s no reason for this anxiety. At least no rational one. But there it is. Leave it to the human mind to take something so positive and generate a reason to worry about it.

There is so much to learn and with the access that we have today it’s really a question of deciding what’s worth investing time in and what’s not. And that leads to the larger question of: what do you want to spend your life doing? This implies that we have to pick and choose because we only have so much time. Mortality is a buzz kill.

I spend an hour in my studio every night. Usually 8 to 9 PM. This is after bed time for the dude and during a time when Stacey is usually doing something creative on her own. It’s only an hour, but I spend all day thinking about how I’m going to use it. I often find that I’ve done what I want to do in 30 minutes because after thinking about it for so long I’m so focused that it just comes out the way that it should. That’s not to say that what I post weekly is anything more than a sketch. These certainly aren’t polished products, but they’re “done for now.”

I’m also building instruments. It is so very relaxing, making things with my hands. I wish I had started sooner so that I could have built up more skill by now. Not that I need to be good at it, but it’d be nice. I generally work on that stuff on the weekends or do the odds and ends that are possible with a small boy running around the room or on my lap. It’s so very satisfying to have a tangible end product. That it feeds into what I’m doing in my other creative time is just a bonus.

What am I trying to say here? There are a million directions and I have chosen two for now. And there has never been a better time for doing either of them, I think.

Where is your head? Where is your process? What kind of time are you investing in your work?

And if I may be so bold, what’s your current creative goal? Do you have an end game? Because that’s where I am really stuck. I know I want to build my idea of The Guitar. I also know that I want to release at least one collection of new songs before the end of the year. But that’s all I know and it’s really vague. Or it feels vague.

that ends rather abruptly but the questions i pose to my buddy are valid for anyone who is creating today. where are you headed? what are you getting done?

today’s sketch: sketch-24-mar-2009

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sawdust and fear

since i got my sketch posted early this week, i took last night off and sat in bed. i was doing a little light reading. i saw that my trash was full on the laptop and went to empty it. somehow, my entire desktop directory made it in. quick fingers managed to save only one directory from oblivion. this was not good. fortunately for me, my beloved wife nagged me into using time machine not too long ago and i was able to recover everything except a couple of tracks from my most recent sketch. not too bad all told.

lots of time in the garage this past week. the kit guitar has been routed to accept the bindings. i can use my new bending iron this weekend and get everything tucked away and glued up with any luck. tonight as i was routing the back i noticed that what i thought would be an epic failure was averted by binding of exactly the right height. better lucky than smart.

i have to say that i hate working with power tools. routing out the sides was nerve wracking. a sneeze or false step can destroy hours and hours of work. i much prefer hand tools but for tasks like this i just don’t have the time. all that said, i still find working on guitars to be supremely relaxing and fulfilling. i spend all day making things that can’t be seen or felt. it’s such a joy to be able to reach out and touch something in which i have invested much and time and thought. this is fun.

pics will be posted sometime next week. i need to do something worth showing a picture of and i think the herringbone purfling with rosewood bindings will be just the thing.