where’s my epiphany?

I’m not dead, just hibernating. Too much heat. Too many hours of daylight. Far too much whining. Have I mentioned that my wife is a saint?

In any case, we’ve been enjoying the Ken Burns Jazz documentary. Netflix On Demand is sometimes too awesome for words. We’re up to disc three of the series and I’m remembering how much of an impact this film had on me the first time I watched it on a tiny TV in my spare room studio. I have to say that the effect isn’t really in the pictures but in the story telling. No surprises there, but I was amused to see that with a much nicer TV and sound system it didn’t radically alter the impact.

The first time I watched it, I was floored by all of the nuances of the story. The plot of the music and its development are a subject that sums up so much of American history and tracks through the 20th century. But this time through, I’m almost sad.

huh?

Jazz (the music) hit at a time when anything could happen in the arts because we hadn’t yet hit what I see as the ultimate extremes. We were still working our way out to the edges and exploring. Music and art could grow because there were hard limits. There was something against which to wage an artistic war. I’ve mentioned a thousand times before that when we decided that anything was OK in music and art, we lost the desire to search. With nothing to contain or put constraints on the effort, no effort was needed. That perceived absence of a territory to explore has in some way taken away the potential for epiphanies.

The best example of this from the film, so far, is the story of a concert violinist who went to a club, heard a band, and gave up the violin for the saxophone. Switched instruments just like that. Gave up a tradition and training that took most of his life to cultivate to follow a completely new path. Lying in bed that night, I tried in vain to figure out what it would take for me to do that. What kind of life shattering sound would I have to hear to give up all that I have known and change phase that way?

I wonder if it’s just me. If it’s a nostalgia for a time that I didn’t know. Is it possible that it wasn’t that big of a deal and maybe the fact that the incident was singled out in the film made it seem like more than it is? Again, I don’t know. I have thought for a long time that we exist in after the concept of rules where art is run by fashion. What else could explain the hundreds of subcategories of music that revolve around the same nugget of an idea but twisted ever so gently? Look at the millions of flavors of “techno” that, without serious and deliberate study, are indistinct to most listeners. Not to pick on techo as the same can be said of the various flavors of folk and rock music that have been climbing out of the walls. We spend far more time classifying and trying to distinguish between the like styles than we do exploring or reaching out for some kind of new expression. For all the hype around living in an information age where anything is possible, our art surely doesn’t indicate it.

Pretty harsh words for a guy who likes nothing more than to take a six string, set it to an open tuning, and wail until the walls shake. Yeah, that’s been done before. But isn’t that the point? Where is our J.S. Bach? Where is our Louis Armstrong? Where is that person who will synthesize what happened after 1960, or hell, even 1980? Leaps and bounds of technological development with nothing to be shown for it but a million banks of Fender Rhodes piano patches and more ways to play through a fake Marshall stack with a minimal noise floor and no pissed off neighbors. Who is going to take all of what was done and roll it up into something?

This has nothing to do with Money or Record Labels or The Academy or the vast perceived freedom of The Internet. This has nothing to do with a paradigm shift or The New Way. All of this has to do with the missing link. The music that will tie it all together and make the forgotten worthwhile. To make every thud of a DnB and endless chorus by a jam band come together and make sense together. Maybe things move too fast for that kind of evolution. Maybe music is burning through generations faster than ever. Listen to the “dated” sound of most stuff from the 1980s when synthesizer technology was barely into the main stream. Something has to place itself as the junction of these streams, doesn’t it?

I guess I’m surprised that it hasn’t happened. Though mostly, I’m sad because I don’t think that it will. And the six or seven people who read this blog should be bummed out because I’m not done talking about this yet. There are at least five more installments. Stay (open) tuned!

back to projects and the studio

I’m back to the studio grind. I find that I spend less time in the studio composing and more actually recording in the summer. This is not intuitive as I can’t run the ceiling fan in there when I’m recording and as I may have mentioned before, the ceiling fans are the way I get through the day during the summer. That said, things are moving along. I have come up with a few new tracks that have some hope in them but need a little time to ferment.

old wood

That might be the most difficult part of working in the summer: it’s slow. Everything feels slow. Nothing wants to move or disturb the air in any way. I sit on the floor and strum my guitar (the new one with which I have fallen completely in love). Sometimes I listen to the sound bouncing off of the walls in the dark. I can sit on a single chord for quite some time. It feels good to practice the varying textures that can be created with a single sonority. As always, there’s much to be gained by slowing down. But it doesn’t fill the pages of my notebooks or the contents of my recording collection.

I know it has been a long time since I released any music on the site. That will change shortly. I’m setting up to do a marathon recording session and get a new EP out. I have enough material for that and before I can really dig in on some of my collaborations I have to get it out of my system. Watch this space for new tunes!

Last weekend was the first in a long time where I didn’t do anything that related to building an instrument and it almost drove my crazy. I have come to depend on that activity as an outlet the way my wife uses sewing. It’s important to make things! A large package from Luthiers Mercantile showed up this week and made sure that my madness won’t be an issue in the coming months. Instrument 003 is off and running. This stuff is fun. It’s a wonderful hobby, not all that expensive (when compared with boats, hunting gear, and motor sports), and very refreshing. I almost always feel better after working on an instrument. It’s solving physical problems that matter to me. That last part is probably the most fulfilling. There is nothing like solving a problem that matters.

So there will be more pictures of the building process soon. More bells and whistles this time. More good fun.

keep moving

Summer isn’t really a great time for me in terms of creativity. There’s too much daylight and way too much heat. I don’t function well. This is of course exacerbated in Texas. It’s really hot down here for a long stretch. The bad stuff is here and I will have to tough it out for a while. It makes me tired.

That said, a box of stuff is on its way to my house so I can continue on instrument 003. I can’t exactly shut my life down just because I’m too hot to make sense. I got back into the studio and did some recording. In fact, I have put down two new tunes this week. I’m also ramping up the latest album project and trying to get all of the necessary ducks in a row for that. So things are moving even if the blog is slow.

nice and cool...

I know that I push The War of Art by Mr. Pressfield a lot. But the fact is, it really saved me last summer. (I make the situation of toughing it out in the A/C sound so dire, don’t I? Well, it feels that way.) Pressfield makes the point that if you show up, good things happen. He’s right. Every time I go into the studio I record /something/. Any time I sit down with some wood and tools I make /something/. Even if the end product of that session isn’t great, there is more produced than zero. The experience of doing the work adds to that weird 10,000 hours that it takes to achieve some level of mastery. Experience is never a waste though it might be tougher to wrap one’s head around.

What is most important to realize in the times when the work is tough to get into is that the only lost time is the time we don’t spend doing something. I love the fact that my wife and I have given up the passive life. The TV is almost never on. She works hard sewing garments (I have some fantastic shirts as proof). She is using her mind. Being creative. I work on my guitars in the same room where she sews. Our son plays in that room the whole time. He helps a lot. I’m hoping desperately that he’s being imprinted. I want him to see that making things matters. Showing up counts. Someday he will find the thing that ignites his passions and I want to have provided him with a solid example of how to live a life where the things that are important to us are front and center.

A lot rides on those nights in the studio and the hot weekend afternoons in the garage. So that’s where I am. I’m not batting 1000, but I’m swinging.

guitar 002 complete

This weekend marked the completion of guitar 002. It got its strings Sunday afternoon and a few minutes of playing before the reality of being a parent closed in on the fantasy of being a luthier. That said, I did get a good deal of assistance from novice’s apprentice in history. Some of the results of that help are still visible on the finished product.

The picture is from my phone and thus lacks some detail, but here it is!

all done!

It’s easier for me to pick out the things that went wrong than to talk about what went right. The truth is, this is my second build and I really don’t have a good handle on what I’m doing correctly. The stuff that’s wrong is glaring (to me) but the stuff that’s right is, well, elusive for the time being.

Lessons learned:

1. Take more time when routing the channels for the binding. Make sure it fits perfectly all the way around and makes a uniform surface on both sides. It can’t be fixed later.

2. Check the thickness of the headstock veneer before getting creative instead of after.

stripey!

3. Improvise. It’s fun, makes cool effects, and generates points of interest. Besides, this isn’t life or death. It’s a guitar. Live a little!

ooooh...

4. Buy as many stupid rulers and templates as there are. It’s the difference between 30 minutes and 2 minutes for many processes. When working with an assistant who might not appreciate the nature of certain objects and must be supervised at all times (“Daddy! What this? Uh oh! I drop it!”), the time savings is crucial.

5. Take pictures of every step. Not some of them or most of them. All of them.

dramatic clamp effect!

6. Set aside 4 to 8 weeks for finishing. Suck it up. That’s the only way it’s going to look good.

7. Enjoy being an amateur. It’s wonderful to enjoy doing something well. Have fun with it and relax.

8. For every fault or failure in execution, find a point of interest or something that was done perfectly.

9. Play it!

The next instrument is already in the mold. I have some more materials to acquire and a couple of tools have gone from “nice to have” to “dammit, if I’m going to do this more than once I need that thingy!” Most importantly, the temperature outside is reliably above 90 most days. That means that the ambient temperature of my garage is probably in the upper 90s to 100. That’s not really conducive to doing much of anything with tools or nice wood. So I may piece a few things together in the coming months or just shelf it all until September. It’s unlikely that I’ll let it go that long, but I have things to record and an EP that I promised myself would find its way to the world before the end of June.

It feels good to have so much to do.

five things

I’m big on the Five Things List. There’s no way for me to know where I got the idea, but it was certainly from a blog and I know that I started doing it on 21 Dec 2009. In the little notebook in my bag, the pages are filling up with five things that I accomplished today. At first it was a neat little hack to keep an eye on the projects that were getting real face time. Job related items don’t make the list. Only things that are done on my clock count. As a result, there’s a tendency to pad things when only one project is in motion. But the technique is a great way to track values.

most useful tool

In most lists there is at least one reference to my son. Whether we baked some cookies or he “helped” mow the lawn or we read an extra book at story time, he generally makes the cut. There is also always some reference to a musical project. It could be a new recording or a new instrument. Maybe a tool finally arrived or I found a new way of doing something through trial and error. Those things make the list. And there are self care items. Trips to the doctor or errands that are finally done. Reading and listening progress. Things that I do.

But the things I mentioned above aren’t the real trick. The real trick, which I’m still trying to master, is imaging what I want the list to say and making it so. My mom does the same thing but kicks it up a notch. She makes lists of five things she wants to do tomorrow. I tried that too. It works for her because she’s OK with hitting three out of five. When I see that I can’t check off every item, I get bummed out. It doesn’t help that I write things like “Research the history of Luthierie in southern Spain” as list items. So I’m working toward making the list a certain shape. If I hit the general curve, it feels good and pushes me to do more. And I know that at the end of the day I need to write down Five Things, so I’d better have at least that many.